“and she said that I was the brightest little firefly in her jar”

I always come back to this one.

Taking this one in before I head to work..

Farewell Poetry / Hoping for the Impossible to Ignite

Looking for something that experiments with spoken word / post rock / ambient music? 

This is it.. I originally got into this LP due to its post rock elements but to only describe it as a post rock LP is somewhat degrading. It is so much more than that. One might even say it picks up where post rock leaves off.. check the LP out and judge for yourself!

Trouble Will Find Me

This latest LP from The National has really taken up much of my listening time this past week. However, I am coming to realize more and more that this LP is exactly what I expected from the National; A complete & perfectly fabricated LP from start to finish. These guys never disappoint. As a matter of fact I can’t really see a change from this LP as compared to their first LP. Lyrically it comes along the same lines & instrumentally slightly differing. However, it’s really a change that The National has been working through out there LP’s there is a slight variation among them but nothing dramatic that is obvious from one LP to the next. 

Loving this thing so far, my favorite track off of this I’d say is “This is the Last Time” and I think it has something to do with the way  Matt says Jenny towards the end of the track and the music really drowns away leaving just some acoustic, a very calm base and the backup vocals  creating for a very emotional minute or so. 

Rating: 8/10

Anticipation. 

sunday. I was bored. Noticed I may have left my camera charger back in NYC on my recent trip, so I decided to snap a photo before the remainder of the battery goes to waste with the camera being idle.

Took this photo this morning. I woke up and the blinds had been left open from the night before.

I felt like time was waiting for me to get up.. 

The Tallest Man On Earth
There's No Leaving Now
Bright Lanterns

Folk.
Frightened Rabbit
Pedestrian Verse
December's Traditions

Favorite off this LP

Taken via Instagram on iPhone 5

another beautiful bike at 718 Cyclery

Taken via Instagram on iPhone 5


Back in my comfort zone. NYC.

"Opportunity’s knock was really just the pizza man."
Milo

Doom.

Soap&Skin // Sugarbread

Pretty dope 3 tracks on here!

Cognition.

Last night I was met by the amazing question of what if? Specifically what if I had not moved to California. I’m not sure as to how the thought made its way into my mind as I laid here listening to Iron & Wine as I try to sleep.

The question did arise in a sort of interesting way as my mind quickly explored the many different situation that would have been different had I not moved. For instance, I thought of some very unimportant things such as issues with my bike. For how significant are issues with my bike when thinking of things happening differently had I not moved. Stay with me..

In the midst of mind running right through all these possibilities that would have been different I realized that everything I was thinking of was negative. If I didn’t move, this negative thing wouldn’t have happened..  And so on. So in attempt to justify my negative cognitive I resort to the idea that just because I crashed on my bike in California doesn’t not mean that had I not moved, I would have suffered any incident on my bike in NYC. For NYC is more dangerous for a cyclist to ride in so therefore, had I stayed in NYC chances are that I would have suffered a bicycle accident there as well, and the probability may have even been higher for NYC indeed is more dangerous than The Bay Area for a cyclist.

I then realized that the mere thought of the possibility that I would have suffered a bicycle accident even if I had stayed in NYC does not justify anything, nor does it balance out my negative thoughts. Why had I not just thought of all the positive things that wouldn’t have happened if I had stayed in NYC that happened as a result of moving? Why weren’t the positive cognitive my initial thoughts? For are we wired to think of negatives thoughts?

Throughout my life, I’ve met a couple people that seemed to just think of the positive outcomes of all situations first, or at least they spoke of them first. Were they simply just putting an effort to do so? Were we always like this? Wired to think negatively? For I’d like to think not.

I think the reason we are this way is because the common trust we have for each other is no longer existent. Is it possible that we have an issue thinking of the positive outcomes of a situation simply because we have been trained over time to keep our defenses up; defenses sometimes up against ourselves. For I had just thought of the negative situations that have surfaced as a result of moving without my mind even hinting at the many positive experiences. I have just put up a defense against myself; refused to allow myself to play at the thought that moving may have possibly been for the better. Merely because the very seed of my question “what if?” had been developed from a predisposed idea in my mind that I was not even aware of. .

I was simply home sick.